by Sarah
(Dublin, Ireland)
I have struggled with anxiety and fears for as long as I can remember. As a writer, actor and performer, I am extremely creative. However, in recent times, I was finding that my creativity was blocked and not flowing as it should.
I was easily distracted from completing my own tasks and doing what I enjoyed, particularly when it came to helping others in need. I would adapt in certain situations to make others comfortable, a little too eager to please, at my own expense. Perfectionism was a huge focus of my attention and I didn't value myself or my own time enough.
I had very low energy, was often exhausted but would not be able to get a good night's sleep. This was also affecting my career and business and I had started to feel deep anxiety, particularly around performing on camera. I also had difficulty focusing for long enough to learn my lines and had a deep-rooted fear of forgetting them completely. Before and after some days on set, I would have a racing mind, insomnia and neck tension, which would then lead to terrible tension migraines. Some days, I would be so fearful and exhausted that I found it hard to complete any simple task.
To start dreading to do the things that you love doing is a truly awful way to feel and I knew that it was not the way I wanted to live my life.
It became apparent to me that I didn't want to "just cope" anymore, there was something from my past that was holding me back (although I wasn't sure what it was at that point!) and I needed help to clear this issue once and for all.
I have attended counselling on and off for many years. I have read many self help books. I practice meditation, yoga and breathwork. All of these helped me to a certain point, but I found that when stressful situations arose in my life, I seemed to go back into the same old patterns.
I contacted Susanna to see if this was something she could help me with and she responded swiftly and said that she believed she could help me.
It started with a simple form to fill out that asked me questions in advance of our session. I found that this was very good to help me to focus on what I wanted to achieve from hypnosis. She also asked me to journal freely every day for 6 days before my session to see if any other issues came up that I might not be consciously aware of, which was very helpful.
Before doing online hypnosis I was a bit wary of it and concerned that it might be a “one-size-fits-all” approach, and might not be suitable for me. I had never done counselling online, so I wondered if maybe it might be difficult for me to feel a real connection between myself and my therapist. Now I’m wondering why it took me so long to do it.
At times I even forgot that we were speaking to each other from hundreds of miles apart! At the end of each session, I could just turn off the computer and relax in my own home (and maybe take a little nap!) instead of getting stuck in traffic or spending hours travelling.
It was clear to me from the start that Susanna is a deeply intuitive person. She listened intently, heard and understood what I had to say and knew exactly where to guide me in a very personal way.
Not once did I feel even a little bit judged or under-valued, which can be a big fear of mine (as I know it can be for others too) when it comes to therapy. When I became stressed or upset by certain things, she knew, as if by magic, that I needed to be centred and guided me to a place of calm and reason. When she speaks, she has a very clear, calm and soothing voice, it is like listening to a true and trusted friend. She has a special talent of breaking things down into simple uncomplicated steps, where other therapies may be convoluted and drawn out.
She gave me simple practices to do daily, which helped keep my mind focused on what I was doing. I saw immediate results after the first session and continued improvement on a daily basis after that.
Working with Susanna has been life-changing in such a short space of time, I can hardly believe it. Contacting her was the best decision that I have ever made, not just for my career, but for my personal life too. In the past I found that counselling and therapy could often be a slow process. I expected results from hypnosis, but not for it to transform my entire life so dramatically in such a short space of time!
My stage fright and anxiety has completely gone, I am able to learn and remember my lines more easily. I feel more relaxed and confident in front of the camera. And, best of all, after years of sporadic sleep, I can now fall asleep and usually get a full 7 hours of uninterrupted sleep!
It's like a spell has been broken and I can see the bigger picture for the first time in my life. I am setting up healthy boundaries and have stopped people-pleasing - or notice when I'm about to fall into the pattern and stop myself in time.
My mind feels clearer, I am definitely more creative, mental blocks have been removed and I have more energy and focus on what I’m doing, putting myself first at times when I wouldn’t have before working with Susanna.
Reading back now on the form I filled out I did before working with Susanna, has been a great indicator of how far I have come in just a few weeks. Looking back over my journaling from 4 weeks ago, I realise that now, I really and truly don't care about some of the things that seemed so huge and terrifying then! Added bonus, along with the issues that I had originally wanted resolved.
My life has become calmer in ways that I didn’t expect too, my personal relationships have transformed.
She has helped me clear some deep-rooted patterns and childhood trauma that I have been coping with for years. The tension in my neck has lifted, (I could feel it physically easing after the 4th session!) and I have been sleeping so much deeper than I have before. This has all resulted overall in a much happier, confident me!
I am able to focus on tasks and not get distracted.
Following one session, I even had a dream that a particular person from my past that I had been working on clearing in that session, was a passenger in a car that I was driving and they were criticising me from the back seat. In the dream, I felt suppressed rage release and transform into power and told this person “I’m not driving anymore, you can drive yourself” and I got out of the car and walked away. What a powerful message to receive from my own subconscious!
I have thoroughly enjoyed working with Susanna, she has been so insightful and, even though it has been challenging for me at times, it has been worth it.
If you want to change your life, I advise you to invest in online hypnotherapy with Susanna, it will be the best decision you will ever make, the most precious gift that you can give to yourself - and your inner child.
You, and your inner child DESERVE to be happy!